Yeah if your insurance covers HRT then it might be for the best to stick with valerate until you find a pharmacy. Sadly I don’t have any tips for getting it officially. I do DIY so I buy EEn from Otokonoko. If you are here then I assume you would avoid using Reddit lol, but you might have a better chance if you ask in one of their subreddits.

Honestly I’ve never injected in thighs and find the tummy more reassuring lol, to me I barely feel it there. Ig people sometimes are built different ig

Regardless, glad I could help :3

It’s worth noting that quantity of semen can vary throughout your progress in HRT. In my case I produced little to almost none around the first 4 months but now (6 months) my semen is in much more quantity but more diluted. That seems pretty normal according to what other trans people go through, in fact you might eventually notice more pre-cum. Some say it could be related to cis women’s lubrication and your body trying to replicate that.

I would incline to say, based on what you say, maybe you are experiencing too little estrogen, but hopefully you are aware that self diagnosing has the problem of confirmation bias and placebo, which is the reason I don’t put them that much weight into them.

My advice is three things: first, next time you inject make sure you have at least one or two inches of fat between your fingers, if you don’t use another area like your tummy. Probably use 45 degrees especially if you’re on the skinny side; besides, imho I don’t get why people that want SubQ inject in 90 degrees anyways, afaik there are no advantages to it and only risks hitting muscle instead, and IM can hit a blood vessel. Second, if you haven’t had issues before this incident then perhaps you have nothing to worry about but make sure to keep in mind your blood test. Third, if it’s an option for you perhaps consider getting estradiol cypionate, or even better enanthate? Those have a longer half life than valerate so they might make your levels more consistent and you could inject less often (people on cypionate commonly inject weekly, and on enanthate every 10 days or even every two weeks).

If it helps, it's unlikely you hit a vein with SubQ injections, especially if you did it at 45 degree and especially if your needle is short enough and you aren't hitting the muscle. So it's a bigger chance you didn't, and your E is fine, even if you got hurt. If you are with a doctor (or if you are on DIY then the doctor is yourself), talk with them about injecting more often (and maybe a higher dosage) just in case. For some people the ups and downs can cause mood swings and stuff. It's also important to know mood swings are not reliable as estrogen indicators, since they are influenced by many factors. A better though not completely reliable option is (cw sex and AMAB genital mention) ::: spoiler spoiler check on the semen on your masturbation, and compare a few days after the injection visually to what you produce the day of the injection. It should remain consistent, most but not all people on good E levels produce a kinda transparent, white-ish watery fluid. ::: Obviously though, the best way is blood test. But not everyone has that option sadly.

This is super anecdotal and obviously does not apply to everyone. But I find interesting that at least a decent chunk of trans people, their pre-HRT levels tend to be outside the normal ranges.

In my personal case, it’s quite the opposite actually. My T was pretty much the 25% line (18 years old btw) with 422 ng/dl (14.63 nmol/L). So normal range if on the lower side. But my E is 112 pg/ml, which is twice as high as the male range and low-normal female range. And ever since I started on HRT my range has been wacky, with my E being way higher for the dosage I was getting. Granted, my case is sadly currently undiagnosed and it’s certainly not something I have ever heard from another person, but I do hear about stuff like that. Just kinda curious about how common it is.

Is this real or just an edit?

Looks like the "joke" is just thirsting

... I think the dialogue cutscenes and the RPG fights count as a big chunk of the games, and those use drawings.

The gender dysphoria bible is such an awesome resource. It 100% was what cracked my egg.

You hate twilight because it's popular, I hate twilight because the relationships are toxic at best. We are not the same.

Yes, you are absolutely right. I forgot to update here but I bought eyeliner (one that actually worked) and it was a night and day difference :D

Also yes I have a friend that is helping me with makeup (tho from afar sadly, I send her pics and she gives advice) and it's working out well.

Euphoria / dysphoria are a result from satisfaction / dissatisfaction out of something new you're trying out gender related. Eventually you will feel less of those, and that's ok. At the end of it all what matters is you feel comfortable about yourself. That you feel, you.

Thanks everyone for the replies! I know they were a bit short since I’m kinda tired, but I really appreciate it

Ooo didn’t knew about the beard shadow thing! I found concealer kinda works for the beard shadow, but not completely. Maybe I should try that.

Do you have some videos you recommend?

And yeah it can be a bit tiring (transition in general can be), but ig I’ll learn one step at a time

Noted! I do have some jeggings, maybe I should actually use them 😅

Thanks for the motivation, I’m really gonna need it :3

Ngl I kinda want to see that lmao

Looks like I’ll be buying eye makeup stuff next trip at the drug store. Ty!

Are the axis you are referring to romantic, platonic, sexual, etc. attraction? Because I have no problem with those, but in that case I identify as a romantic and sexual lesbian.

And yes I would say denial is a very strong word. It implies you know better about how a person feels than themselves.