MystikIncarnate 56m ago • 100%
The difference with ADHD, especially untreated ADHD, and the idea of "sometimes you have to force yourself to do something" is that, as a person with ADHD, trying to force myself to do stuff, without the assistance of medication, can often be a bit like trying to nail jello to the wall.
It might work for a short time, but eventually, it'll be laying on the floor, not doing what you want it to do.... Much like me.
The paralysis is very real and very strong. The contrary feelings fighting eachother in your head, one voice saying how important it is and that you need to do it, another that's breaking down the task into every motion required, so one job becomes a quintillion individual steps, which makes you feel overwhelmed and anxious at even the thought of trying to do the job, and another voice berating you for being a lazy fuck who can't even do the most simple shit, like get off the couch and do the thing.
In the end you just feel horrible, both about the thing you should have done and about your worth as a person, leading to depression, which exacerbates the issue further.
It's a cycle of violence that most ADHD people have suffered with for their entire life.
MystikIncarnate 1h ago • 100%
This reminds me of a punishment homework thing I was given in my youth, I had to write out something a bunch of times, which was a shit punishment to begin with and only happened once in like, grade 3 or something. Maybe even grade 1 when we were learning to write, idk. Maybe it wasn't a punishment (it felt like one).
Instead of writing the letter "i" at the start of every line like I was supposed to, I just put a long line down the page to be that letter on every line.
The only part of this that I remember to this day is that I got it back with that line circled in red and the word "lazy!" Written next to it, with points off of the assignment for it.
That's literally the only thing I recall about it, that finding an "easy" way to write the same letter across multiple lines was lazy, therefore I'm lazy and worthless. I don't even remember if I passed or failed it, because that was less important to my young mind than being called lazy for simply trying to optimize my working time.
I dunno, but at this point I kind feel like that teacher was a bit of an asshole.
MystikIncarnate 4h ago • 100%
I don't think anyone is saying that only rape victims should be able to get an abortion.
At least, not that I've seen.
I'm sure someone with a fence wedged up their arse is going to say that or something similar...
To anyone considering it: prosecuting and proving that something is rape in order to allow the woman to abort a pregnancy will take so long that the pregnancy will be over by the time you get a final verdict.
Terminating a pregnancy is a personal choice and it should not be something that needs some kind of excuse to allow. It's a personal and medical procedure, by dragging it into the public, you're going to invite all kinds of HIPAA issues and you'll be unfairly exposing someone's medical situation to the public. To put it simply: you will make a very private medical decision, into a public record, for no good reason.
To anyone still reading, if you don't already, please support bodily autonomy, and women's rights. I'm a guy and I approve this message. (Anyone who disagrees, can go to hell).
MystikIncarnate 4h ago • 100%
You're arguing that the highlighting is wrong, that it should include "after" in the highlight?
MystikIncarnate 4h ago • 100%
We can't take it out, but we can over rule it with reason and logic. We can decide to do something that's not our "natural" choice.
I know plenty of childfree couples, yet our biological drive is to create children to perpetuate our genes in the species.
There's a lot of exceptions to the natural human drives that most people experience.
MystikIncarnate 1d ago • 0%
You mean 10 billion?
Large cities can have more than 10 million people, so I assume you mean the other thing.
Bluntly, half of the occupants of residences would be gone, and their stuff would be up for grabs. It would take a few years to stabilize afterwards, but it would mostly be business as usual for those who survived the snap (apart from the obvious mental trauma).
Enough homes exist for the number of people who live here now, whether those homes are condos, apartments, detached homes, townhouses, or otherwise. A lot of people would be able to move somewhere more permanent, because the housing market would crash pretty hard.
As we refill the homes the population would naturally return to the same level of growth we have seen previously.... So after a few years, maybe a decade, max, humanity would be back on the population train straight to 8B again for sometime between 2050 and 2075.
Humans don't really follow the same population rules as apply to animals, bacteria, or other organisms in general.
MystikIncarnate 2d ago • 100%
I'm pretty sure this was the entire premise of dumb and Dumber.
MystikIncarnate 2d ago • 100%
Technically, it's not wrong.
It's also not helpful, but it's not wrong.
MystikIncarnate 3d ago • 100%
This just seems like ragebait, and stoking the fires of a potential race war (again).
As someone once famously said: "can't we all just get along?"
MystikIncarnate 3d ago • 100%
My confusion on the last sentence is with the inclusion of both "still" and "always".
Either one would make sense and give flavor to the post about what you're talking about.
"It still worked" meaning the TV/controller worked after being thrown around, a astute commentary about the durability of controllers and TVs compared to the original consoles.
"It always worked" seems to imply that doing this ritual completed the objective of calming the rage.
Both is just confusing me
MystikIncarnate 3d ago • 90%
As a fellow Canadian, I also cannot vote in the US election, but I support this message.
To my American neighbors, please make a plan to vote.
MystikIncarnate 4d ago • 100%
There's a good number of ADHD meds that have side effects for anxiety and depression.
They're not as good as actual anxiety or depression meds, but it's not nothing.
MystikIncarnate 4d ago • 100%
Yes and no. It's not exclusive to ADHD.
The ADHD part of this is being unable or very bad at "tuning it out" so you can focus on something. Like, you recognise there's sound, but since it's not relevant to what you're focused on, you ignore it without thinking about the fact that you're ignoring it... That's what ADHD people are bad at.
It can be very helpful if you need to listen for specific sounds to survive. Like, if you were in the brush and you hear very specific crunching noises, the kind that you would hear if you were being stalked by a predator.... Someone with ADHD would be able to pick up on that more readily, while doing something else (like, idk, gathering), than someone who doesn't have ADHD.
IMO, a lot of ADHD traits provide advantages in specific scenarios, mainly related to crisis, conflict and survival, but those traits work against you for basically everything else.
My ADHD superpower is basically being situationally aware to the point at which it harms my ability to live. I almost always remember the most trivial details of places and situations that largely do not matter. I'll get called into a meeting for some hyper important project from my manager for client x, and that I should be working with person y at the client site to push forward. I will remember every detail of the plant on the managers desk, whether it was real or fake, was it in dirt or mulch or that foam stuff that they sometimes use for plants, was it recently watered (was the substance it was in, wet?), any oddly colored stripes in the stem/branches/leaves. How big was it, were there any issues with it, did it have any neighbors (other plants, maybe a fish?), even pictures nearby, etc...
Then I have to email my manager later to ask who y is, because I've forgotten the name.
This is my life.
MystikIncarnate 5d ago • 100%
I made the foolish mistake of thinking things had finally started to make sense when Netflix happened, and I got my hopes up that going legit would be viable.
Oh well
MystikIncarnate 5d ago • 100%
I've been back to the high seas for a while.
Before I get into it, I'll give an honourable mention to the RIAA/music industry, which is largely just putting all of the music on every platform and letting users choose which one they want to use. This is the way, and I'm happy to pay one service to get access to the stuff I actually want to hear.
Back to video/MPAA. Are you all on crack? I saw this coming back when Netflix was the only licensed media game on the internet.... I was subscribed and enjoying some shows, the shows then.... Went away, they disappeared. After looking into it, the show I was enjoying was pulled when a copyright was revoked by the publisher, so Netflix no longer had the right to distribute the show.
I saw the writing on the wall. That publisher was going to make their own Netflix competitor with their stuff on it, to try to extort more profit from the streaming stuff. Clearly their c-suite thought that people would be willing to pay for just their content separately from Netflix. I saw that writing and noped right the fuck out. Grabbed my tri-point hat and flag from storage and set sail, and I've never looked back.
The copyright holding asshats, ruined internet streaming, because everyone wanted to be their own thing. They splintered the entire online streaming thing into a bunch of disparate platforms all with some subset of the media available via streaming. It's worse than cable, honestly.
IMO, the only good move that's happened for streaming (but horrible for so many other reasons) was Disney gobbling up all the other media studios and production companies, then putting all their stuff on one service. There's a few holdouts, but by and large the two biggest players right now are Netflix (the OG) and Disney (+)... So a bunch of good media ended up on D+, and so it's kind of "the" streaming service... For better or worse (mostly worse, as OP points out).
I'm still firmly on my ship, sailing the high seas. Unless they go the way of music, and allow all shows on every platform and you pick your platform based on your preferences, I'll stay on this ship. Thanks.
MystikIncarnate 5d ago • 100%
Line must go up.
MystikIncarnate 6d ago • 100%
I've been staying away from making comments when I am able to resist that urge.
All I'm going to say is, go vote.
MystikIncarnate 6d ago • 100%
Also a dirty engineer, and proud.
In my MP games, I get things done. You want things to look pretty, do it yourself.
MystikIncarnate 6d ago • 100%
Hey, don't point it out! People are blissfully ignorant of how much they are owned. Don't try to educate them.
- corporations, probably.
This is probably more of a Lemmy specific thing than what's normal on this community, but I posted on a community from lemmy.ml and the mods there banned me from the community. They didn't remove my post or message me about it. I only found out because when I was going through replies, I couldn't reply and I noted that my account is banned from that community. I wasn't saying anything untoward or encouraging anyone to do anything illegal or anything like that. It was a comment about systems of government. I don't believe I put any emphasis on whether one was better than another, but the post was in a non-political community; so it should not lean one way or the other on the matter, and the post I was replying to introduced the political discussion, so I was on-topic. The specifics aren't super important. What I want to know is whether there's a built-in system to inquire with the mods or something to try to get an official reply as to what rules they believe I had broken to deserve a ban, and whether that ban is permanent or not. I tried simply messaging one of the mods, but it's been hours with no reply. Is there any way to find the information? Previously on Reddit, I would almost always get a message from the subreddit about what happened, what violation caused it, and allowed me to message the mods to try to argue my case, though, me getting banned on that platform was quite rare. This is my first time knowingly being removed like this and I don't understand the process here. Can anyone enlighten me about how these things are supposed to work on Lemmy?
The 1.0 release date was officially announced as September 10th! Also something about a toilet. Mark your calendars!
So, I just need to rant for a minute about what's just happened. It's made me feel fairly disposable as a worker. I work in I.T. support. I help people who can't operate technology with highly complicated issues. I am highly skilled, well trained and I have a diverse set of understanding for technical issues. Last year I took a new job. The old job was an MSP, or Managed Service Provider; if you don't know what that is; an MSP is the IT department for companies too small to have an IT department. That's the summary. The new company is both an MSP and an ISP as well as just about everything else you can imagine for IT.... hosting webpages, and all the associated nonsense, phones/VoIP, colocation (Datacenter stuff).... everything. Basically, when someone was signed onboard with this employer, we did it all. Starting out, everything seemed fairly normal, a bit more involved, since we do more than the last company, but nothing too crazy. The part that irked me, is that as MSP, we own a client, we do everything for them, including, but not limited to all their computer/server/network work (which I expected), but also their phones, internet service, hosting, email, etc. everything.... which is a bit more than I expected, but I was managing okay. In March/April, things changed in my personal life, where I was having to drive my SO to work (she doesn't have her license, and we don't live in a place where she can reliably get a taxi/bus/other transportation), the problem is that her work is 3-11, where I work 9-5, in another city. So I tried to work with my workplace but they wouldn't let go of working from the office, so I ended up on an insane schedule of commuting to the office (over an hour drive each way), then leaving the office at 1PM, to be home for 2PM, to get her to work for 3PM, then GOING BACK TO WORK. I wasn't able to keep up with my workload.... in addition, I'm driving her home at 11, getting home at midnight, then getting up at 5-6AM to get a shower and do it all over again. I couldn't sustain that for any reasonable length of time, and I burned out. My doctor issued a notice to my workplace that I am unable to continue working for the time being, they accepted it and I went on disability as of early may, until now. Currently, I feel much better, compared to when I was burning out in April, and I feel a lot better about going back. The SO has also been working on getting her license and her own car, so within a few months I won't have to even think about whether she can get to work or not, since she will have a car and her license to drive herself there. A week or two ago, I contacted my workplace to let them know I was ready to return. We had a few emails back and forth to resolve the matter of the doctors recommendation and disability diagnosis. Once all that was completed, I thought I was ready to go. Big nope. I got word yesterday that instead of bringing me back, they're laying me off. So not only did they have the callous attitude to force me to drive to the office and back several times a day to try to maintain a poor life scenario (I asked to WFH, which they absolutely could do, since they did it over COVID without significant issues).... but when I burned out as a result of their ridiculous demands, and took some time off, instead of welcoming me back and holding my position, they filled in the gap while I was out on disability, and laid me off when I was able to return. I feel so abandoned. I won't complain about "where's the loyalty" because there's never been a time in my career where "loyalty" has ever been something I've felt that my workplace ever gave me; and all evidence I've seen says that companies have zero loyalty to anyone. Maybe one day in the past that was true, but it's definitely not been true for the entirety of my working career; but here I am, a highly skilled individual, with specific skills that will absolutely help the company succeed, that they know I have, that they're just going to throw away... and for what? The excuse they gave me was financial downsizing, but it's a company of about 12-18 people, so it's not like my job was part of a larger dismissal of people, they've lost, laid off, or otherwise shed employees at a very slow rate. Some of my (now former) coworkers have said that several people who have voluntarily left their positions, have been replaced during my time away; but me? no. Apparently my knowledge isn't worth enough to them. I'm currently on the hunt for a new employer. IMO, these guys are fools to throw away everything I know. The only challenge I face right now is finding someone who will see my value. IT support jobs are usually underpaid in my local area, and too many companies are going return to office and I'm not easily able to find remote (WFH) type employment. The jobs are there, but it's hard to find one that's worth my time. The core issue IMO, with the low pay, is that it's a non-union position, but if I can find a union job, I'm all in. Wish me luck!
Looking for some advice here, I'm out to complete two things: 1. restore saves from the games I played using the stock firmware to GarlicOS 2. get two player/two controllers working for couch gaming over HDMI Specifics: I picked up a 16G microSD for the OS, and a 64G for ROMs, pulled the original (kinda garbage) SD and replaced it with the 16G that I loaded with GarlicOS. I copied the relevant roms that I loaded onto the original SD to the new set and moved the save files ( .sav) over to the saves folder in the relevant subfolder. Launching the game results in a blank save. I can't continue the save. For dual controller/two player, I haven't tested HDMI yet (on the list) I'm just trying to get controllers working at the moment; I have an Anker USB 3 hub. What works right now, is if I plug my Stadia controller in, it gets picked up, no problem. but my xbox controller will mess everything up. If I just do my OTG adapter to the stadia controller, it works, OTG to hub to stadia, no problem. If I either go OTG to the xbox controller, or OTG to hub to controller, it does not come up in GarlicOS. If I plug OTG to hub to both controller, neither shows up. I added waitForUSB (I also tried waitforUSB) file to the OS SD card, with no effect (the file still exists). With stock, I was able to use a controller (just the stadia controller), over USB OTG with HDMI, so I know that works, and it should still work. The Xbox Controller I'm using is almost brand new, it's an XBOX One controller, connected by a USB A to C cable, I picked up 10ft cables from Anker for the purpose. I'm fine with wired, but I also have a USB xbox wireless dongle for PC that I can't seem to find right now, and I'm wondering if that would do any better (and I would prefer this since it would be wireless). Does anyone have any hits or tricks or information related to this that I can use to push this along? is the new series of xbox controllers not compatible? do I need to change the drivers or something to make it work better? I'm new to retroArch, and GarlicOS, and the 35xx is my first dedicated retro handheld. I'm refreshingly not new to linux or SBC's, so I'm very comfortable with making changes and taking chances. All my saves are archived on that original SD card, and I have a backup on my laptop, so I'm not worried about losing saves or data at all. If the controllers are not viable, I'm sure I can find something that works and pick that up, maybe something from 8bitdo. Thanks in advance.
Two subreddits I used to be very active in were for techsupport and networking/home networking. Anyone know if there's Lemmy communities for the same? Also, related, is there a way to list communities available from a specific instance? Like if I wanted to see all communities local to Lemmy.world or something (that's not my local instance), can I do that? If so, how? I'm still getting used to the fediverse way of doing things, I love it here, I'm just having trouble getting myself up to speed relative to all that I was subscribed to on Reddit. TIA
Hello Lemmings. This is something I've been thinking about for a while; basically, I want to move my zwave node away from my main HomeAssistant system. I'll try to be brief; my current config is a single mini/micro system (Dell, I believe), Core i5, 8G RAM and an SSD, it's a ton of power for HA and massive overkill, I know. The problem is that the system is located in a remote room of the house, so the signal isn't exactly the best and I have some nodes that are linked through 2-3 other devices; I'd like to move the USB Z-stick to a more central location, and I don't think a USB extension is going to cut it. I have ethernet wire which is far more viable to get a connection across to the HA computer. I don't want to move the HA computer away from where it is, since there's backup power where it is; so my idea would be to use something like a Raspberry Pi (now that availability seems to be improving), connected by Ethernet using PoE (for power availability from the UPS). Provided I can get a Raspberry Pi, and all the related and required parts together, which should be fairly trivial; how would I connect the zwave dongle on the Raspberry Pi to the computer running homeassistant? I haven't considered this before due to the pi being so difficult to get since I put together the homeassistant system. Ideally, I would want several of these systems placed at key points around the house so that I wouldn't need any of the zwave nodes to relay communications, but that's future plans more than anything - I would need to source several zwave dongles and get them all on raspberry pi's and get them working together.... So going about it towards that end would be a bonus; but at least I want to do some research on it and figure out if I can even relocate the dongle at all first. Any infromation to that end is appreciated. I'm currently using ZWaveJS UI.
Hello Lemmings! I've been thinking about testing CEPH in my homelab, but to do it right I kinda want to build a cluster of systems, preferrably using SBCs to handle a CEPH storage drive each. Specifically, a single SATA disk would be preferred. A while back I came across the ODROID HC1, which was perfect but I wasn't ready to pull the trigger at the time; the only thing I'd want above and beyond what the HC1 was capable of, is PoE to simplify power delivery. Unfortunately the HC1 is discontinued (and rather dated at this point), and I have yet to come across anything remotely similar. There are other boards along the same lines, like the HC4 from odroid, and others (often involving adding a SATA HAT to the SBC), but I'm not keen on that. Essentially, I just want one drive per SBC, and build them into external drive-like enclosures with a single HDD each (3.5" is most likely), and just have a fleet of them. The idea would be to have a pair of "gateway" systems that are more robust, that can pull from the CEPH and portray that data as CIFS or NFS or iSCSI or whatever. Each SBC wouldn't need to be more than 1Gbps linked, but the gateway systems would likely be 10G linked off the same switch to take advantage of the bandwidth of the cluster. Does anyone know of an SBC that's newer and similar in design to the HC1? Something newer/faster would be important, and something with PoE to power itself and the drive would be a nice-to-have (otherwise I'll rig up a high amperage DC rail for all the nodes so I can use a single "PSU" thing for it. If someone knows a better community to place this question, let me know.... still getting used to lemmy.